Time Marches On

And so your memory fades, beyond days and weeks and, still,
I wonder what you fill your days with
I wonder what thoughts pass through your open mind
Yet, I care less today than I did yesterday
Hours go by without you crossing my mind
And I behold the accomplishment with a smile
I am moving forward, I am moving on
I have found another touch to cherish
Another breath to match as I fall asleep
You have fallen from a point of comparison to a distant memory
Time stumbles on, minutes into days, days into months
And I've forgotten your eyelashes against my cheek
I've forgotten the fit of your fingers in mine
The touch of another is fresh upon my skin
Yet I can still recall why I let you in

You Used to Unfold Me

We talk
slowly
about nothing
about movies
we stick to
surface streets
and find no
meaning in cafe windows
no substance in
hotel rooms
I used to unwrap you!
tender layers unfolding
like eager gold
but now
we are cool
and recount
our daily bores
as though
the sum or our
uses
equaled
something
(more)
substantial
while softer
things shrivel
and dry roots
go unfed
strangled
by the phone line
and all
that is
not said

I truly believe the sum of our uses equals something more substantial

The Heart of the Matter

Finally back where I belong. San Antonio is my city.

I had a slight emotional breakdown while I was home. There are so many memories back home to haunt me. As much as I love going home, I really feel this is where I belong. This is where I find my joy. Here, I don't feel as alone.

I had a bit of a breakthrough last week, something to urge me along the path of moving on. Nothing incredibly significant but still exciting. I just need to stay focused on the future and the past won't hurt.